back to bloggin after a long time...the reason i didnt blog was due to my monitor which blew and also there were a few nights where i dose off at around 10:45 pm .... -_-" not like me to sleep so early....but this college thing is making me really tired.so ill blog what ever i can remember from my weekend till today...wont be long but ill try to make it intresting enough to read and not fall asleep as im half asleep now.

ok...on saturday i didnt do anything intresting that i can recall...but on sunday i had my interview/recording from the disney channel on my yoyoing.i didnt expect it to take exactly 5 hours to shoot...and the segment is just about 2 mins in a show... -_- they wanted to take as many shots as possible and then choose the best from it.was really tiring especially when i had nothing at all from morning till late evening and constantly swinging that yoyo.

then came mon till today...wednesday...nothing special happen in college besides me preparing my college band competition as its comming soon...and today they had a spelling bee competition...as silly as it may sound, quite alot of ppl took part...around 100+ students register...and i help out the event ... i was the time keeper -_- ...all i have to do was to keep track of time and ring the bell.

i really hope i can get a monitor by this weekend cos theres a pc fair...cant live without my pc....no music...no game...no mails...no fun...no life =(

gtg now...nitez..

Went back to college today after a month and a half...or more....got my soul scared out of my body when my lecturer said that i failed my resit and have to repeat.Totally freak me out..but in the end it was a misunderstanding...she was so blur..dont think she knew what she was talking at all. Thank god i didnt fail...if not im so dead.

Dont know why but im so damn tired and exhausted...though i didnt do anything in college...mybe that 4 hour break make me bored and causes me tobe tired or something.Attended my college student council meeting today...as ive not been attending it for quite sometime.Nothing much is happening besides Battles of the bands...which is a yearly event and we are doing things kinda last minute. hehe

Ah well...to tired to think...gonna go off now...byez

iDidnt really do much today...all i did was watch a movie and surf the net...played my guitar..and i was in those mood where i played malay songs again...hehehe...i remember my band lead singer saying this to me "Ben you're fucking weird...one minute you play all altenative and the other you are all sentimental" hehe he 100% right..i dont even know my fav music choice.I have mood swings for it hehe.

Watch the Hulk just now...and man thats a really bad movie..not to say that there are graphic glitches and also the story is so...crappy...i think they change it a lil..cos i remember the hulk was because Bruce Banner experimented on himself and not his father...and the really silly part was he jumping from mountain to mountain...thats really really really dumb.He looks as though he was flying more then jumping.I guess the director was kinda out of his mind or something.

I feel really restless tonight as i have no 1 to talk to and theres nothing to do...usually i would be hanging around in the online game talking to ppl or looking for trouble...but since the server will be up on the 18 i got nothing to do now besides to think of reading my books...man im actually thinking of reading..hehe...i wonder if ill really read or end up doing something else.

Oh...i went reading peoples blog again tonight...kinda nice at times knowing what people are doing...but too bad i cant talk to them...would be nice tho if some of them had a tag board or something...*sings* nights are lonely and days are so sad....i keep thinking about the love that we had...and im missing you and nobody knows it but me...

oh well...ill go look for something to do...nitez..

Todays isnt any day special but i was listening to all kinds of sentimental songs from chicago, matchbox 20,jewel, and lots more...dont know why i felt...kinda...in a love mood kinda thing hehe.

Nothing happen today besides drving my mum to the car repair shop and spending my last few hours in fwo..cos its the end of beta2...and there will be a total wipe and the game starts again.Oh no...listening to Kenny G now...im gonna start crying...this is bad...cant think when im the crying mood...well got to go off now...mum wants me to sleep early

nitez...

Didnt do much for the past 2 days.Finally make my phone blog today...so i can blog at anywhere anytime.I got this because i start to talk lots of crap before i go to bed or i could say when im on the verge to sleeping...its like im in s trance and i start blabing..at times i dont even know what i write or said.

i realise that i sms and send it to ppl...which i myself dont know..so hopefully i send it to my blog hehe and not to my father or mother...that would be a bummer....so i hope to see some nice stuff in my phone blog and hopefully some nice comments in there.

ill start talking about myself more tommorow as tonight i feel kinda sick.And i have cut down playing that dumb online game...as there isnt much reason for me to play it...kinda alone in there most of the time...im like the lone ranger...chinese version...sigh.

nitez..

something made me realise about my life again today.An old friend and also my scout troop leader came up to me on icq and ask me to lend him100 buck to pay for his car installment.actually it isnt that cheap but hes short of a 100 buck so he asked me.he stop studying after his 1st year in college and has a diploma in computer,but he isnt a bright student since secondary school and hes active in outsdoor stuff thats why he was in scouts.

he told me that his father has retired and can only support his sister's education.His sister is in primary 6 at the moment but has a mentality of a primary 3.She too isnt good in her studies...and hes a lilttle worried for her...so basically he has to support his family...and his mother just passed away last year...a real shocking incidentHe has been working 2 jobs at the moment and still has a hard time with his cash flow..because he doesnt have a really good quilification he can only find jobs with low salary.

if i would to keep up my education like this i too am not very far from him...and i wont even afford to drive a car around as petrol is expensive.i hope i can make myself work and archieve something in life.i dont want to be like him...its gonna be torturing..and i dont think i deserve to have a girlfriend nor a wife in that situation.

called up my college today to find out my results...but it has not come out...according to the office girl,and i just knew that i start my course on the 21 or something...and not the 14...so i got about anther 2 weeks more...and im still wasting time?i think its time someone come smack me real hard and wake me up...make me do something with my pathetic life...i wanna make a difference and i dont have the will power nor the motivation to do so anymore.

sigh.....ill stop here tonight and so some thinking.

im back!!! hehe...holidays ending =( dont like that....that means i got to try to concerntrate more as my 1st six months is a total ....er....can find a word for it...all i know is i suck big time.maybe ill start erading slowly again starting from tomorrow.got a few plans in mind actually...i would wanna go have dinner with my former bus driver...havent seen him for a while now.

nothing much happening to my in real life...hehe besides in my game i got some clan war issue lol...hmm i dont want to end my holiday....so much unexpected stuff happen...

anyway nothing much today...so ill stop here...nitez

Didnt blog yesterday as there was nothing that happen besides the same old story that ive been blogging...which is staying at home and doing nothing.so what i did today was....er...wake up...watch some cartoons...well actually only 1..i watch dragonball...kinda lost the chance to watch it when i was a kid so ill watch it now hehe....paying back.After that i went back to bed as i slept late the night before.

then later i woke up and wash up...which was around noon...by the way i woke up at 9:30 am and slept back at 10:00 am so after washing up i went out with my parents to have lunch...a long lunch...then came back home and then got stuck to my PC as usual till late night...ofcourse i had my dinner.

and that my 1 whole day...great huh..full of exitment and er...mystery...hehe..nitez

nothing intresting today..besides that i realise that its Friday and that my holidays will end in a week time..and as usual ive not done what im suppose to do, that is to find a job. O well....gotto start reading again, if not ill get drop out and left out

thought of alot of things about myself lately...what kind of person i am and so on...i do notice im a lil protective and i can get jelous kinda fast...when it comes to relationship...but it also depends whos with my gf with.maybe i need to see whats the real problem and try to solve it...if only its as easy as typing this.

not much to say...ill bored myself to death thinking what to blog
nitez

today i slept like a pig...woke up at 1pm and still i felt tired hehehe woke did nothing much...read a few magazines after buying lunch while playing fwo again...as usual...yes...i can read and play...hehe....taking the game as a chatroom now..sometimes i just sit there and do nothing but chat.

hmmm nothing special happen...as i was home AGAIN...all day long...unless you want me to tell you i drank coke and all...and how many times i went to the toilet...hehe...ermm oh ya...suddenly the water pump at my condo had some prob so we dont have water but theres a little water...but the color is kinda yellowish.

anyway....take care....ewww i had to bath in that water...hehhe...*shakes his body*

nitez...

counting days that goes by....lost count of the time i wasted...and even worse...i forgot that its already july.College starting soon and what on earth am i doing....hehehe.somtimes i just got a really weird feeling and i would want to compose a song..but never have i ever made a complete song...its either i dont have the full lyrics or i cant finish up the music.

probably i should take some composing lessons...hehe.talking about music i wonder if ill ever continue my dream of taking my guitar till my diploma...and start teaching next time.mmm lots to learn and i dont feel like i got enuff time..with me wasting every minute and sec by doing all this and playing games...i will never get anything done.got to have some motivation or insparation.i think...not too sure myself.

ah well i talk alot but no action...so this time ill stop talking and TRY to do something 1st then post it...hehehe...good huh?So ill stop blogging here tonight...

nitez

another day has gone...im still all alone....though you're far away....im here to stay...those were the words in Micheal jackson's song...hmm quite true.I find Micheal a nice guy....a big kid...but when hes pressured...he seems really scary.hmm why am i talking about someone's life and not mine LOL.

lets see...what have i done today besides sitting here in front of my pc *thinks real hard* hmmm ahh...to a conclusion...nothing...ive done nothing all day.shoudnt even be proud of it.

so what am i gonna do throughout my holidays?hmmm what a question....i dont even know the answer.so this practically means nothing to blog as theres nothing happeing...hahah.

nitez.